Haven’t written here for a while and I can’t recap everything that has happened, but it’s a lot…
Don’t know if I get the truth out or not but I’ll try if the mood is right..

Don’t know if I want to know even…
Well I do but only in a good way, I don’t want to listen to the bad parts, as do we all…

Christmas came and went and I survived that’s about it..
Got some stupid gifts from my mother-in-law…
A nightgown and a broom with a shuffle…
What’s the underline there… keep it clean and dress when you get to bed…
I do think its great because if I hadn’t got anything from her I would not get anything at all..
That’s life for you… I did get all the gifts and I did gift rapped them but didn’t get anything in return at all not even a thank you…
Thank you for that…

Never mind, I am sad today…
Don’t know why maybe it’s because it looks like I’m not going to talk to my friend tonight…
That’s a shame, would really like to do that…
And I did really want to see my friend…
To bad for me, well I think I’ll cope anyway…. But it’s to bad, will not be able to talk for some days now.
Don’t know what to think about that either…

Got a reminder today that I am and always will be a woman..
Well sure it’s Christmas but why does everything have to be red…….. Get it?

Sometimes life not fair at all, like today, hurt a lot today….
Will be grumpy tomorrow… to tired and to week actually to be grumpy…

Sad though that’s one thing I know how to be and I am…
I really like the way I feel when I am with my friend, don’t know what he feels though…

And that’s kind of sad that to, don’t know if I can tell him though…
He will probably be mad at me…

Would not be the first time and I don’t think it would be the last either, unhappily…

Stupid… I am so stupid sometimes… I’m in a mess, and I don’t know how to o this, don’t want to stop and I do want to know… feeling down…

Oh… I am not alone anymore…